I know you are looking for deliverance and also know you are looking for deliverance from a wrong source, for wrong reasons and with wrong intentions.
Moreover, you are sure in your mind that you have no chance of getting it there.
May I ask you then why are walking that path knowing fully well it cannot lead you to where you want to go.
May I tell you, therefore, you do not need to go anywhere, you are at the right place where you should be.
What really you should try to find out is to know why you are here, where you are now.
Do you really deserve to be here?